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Suicide Notes to Myself: Maybe One Day
Kelly Chanyontpatanakul
Dear Reagan,
You’re a curious person you know? Curious and suicidal. And that doesn’t mix because then you stay up late wondering what it would be like to die. Who would care? How long would it take for your friends to find out? Would they even find out? Would you go to heaven or hell? But most importantly, how would you do it?
In 2015, a study in the U.S. found that about 50% of people committed suicide by using a gun. Around 30% had suffocated themselves, 15% poisoned themselves, and the rest chose other methods. You are frankly scared of using any of them, but here’s how it would work out if you weren’t so scared.
You know all these methods to kill yourself and you’re scared of them all. It’s scary to suffer physical pain. It’s scary to die in general but here you are wanting more than anything to do so. Is there such thing as a painless way to die? There probably is, but you’d probably be scared of doing that too.
Sincerely,
You
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