Right Now: Eat

they say

you are what you eat


but what if you eat nothing 

what if you can’t 


what if it’s ruined for you

so nothing is left 


nothing is what i feel

who i am when you tell me it’s not real


when you tell me i made the decision

that it was my choice


that there’s something wrong 

that it was up to me 


like i chose to suffer 

like i wanted this pain


weighing down every day

until they all become the same


with nothing on the plate

there’s nothing on my mind


when something is on it

there’s always something to worry about